lost and found
Words can’t
find their place because they were written somewhere years ago.
Now, you’re
just feeling it all. The misery, memories, and pain.
Real love
is when the door is open but you’re not holding it anymore.
You gave me
a ring, but I was left alone at the altar.
You put me
in the garden with your promising vine, but my petals are losing their blaze.
And I know it’s still love because my flowers still waters itself with tears.
It’s not
your fault that I let my cup be filled by your love because the devil loves to lie.
And my
heart knows that it’s real because my faith may be dying, but my love is not.
It’s safe
to say that my hope in the next season isn’t found in your hands holding mine
or my hands
holding another.
It’s found
in areas of hopes where our hearts are healed and not haunted by our ghosts.
A fool. Persuaded by his lack of intellect and the drive to connect. Can't help but to notice your choice of words and your poem recently. Your poems and your word schemes are so well constructed (whatever youve expected on any English major) but my life's been okay I know my lapses and she knows mine (whatever you expect of me you know I am in, for the long term) Cunningly I have this feeling that whenever I talk to you you'll always have that part of you that you want to undermine me. Or to be ahead of the game (but their is no game, I just want to talk to you plainly your the one whose giving it a meaning). But for this I'll acknowledge your ingenuity. I acknowledge that the words you used and the feelings you've shown is real like an 18carat gold. But that's just for me, I hope I get to see you soon.
ReplyDeleteI don't understand your comment. This poem is purely based on my imagination alongside with my present experiences. If you were talking to me based on your recent comments, I'm not even entertaining nor giving meaning to your words. I know i'm talking about TTPD with you and i'm not even thinking i'm ahead of the game. I told you, i'm done with it. I have forgiven you and forgiven myself to how I treated you as well before. I'm even giving you hints that I'm okay with everything already based on my personal experiences with every song in ttpd. I'm also talking plainly to you. In our relationship, we always tolerate and allow ourselves to form our own individuality. We are also okay now and this poem is written by another pov or part of me as well. So, thank you for reading and giving time! Was I able to answer your thought?
DeleteHonestly I don't know what's gotten into me. Im so sorry it's just that my mind's been so clouded these few months. I'm not thinking straight. Thankyou for listening btw and I really like how you right. And again I'm really sorry.
DeleteWhy are you sorry? It's actually okay :) you're safe here.
DeleteThat somehow feels nice and reassuring. So this is what it feels like. Thank you. Enough of me, whats new with you? If you don't mind me asking.
DeleteWhy? Were you not assured before? Anyway i'm fine, i'm growing. Still growing for the person we love. How about you?
DeleteNah, it's just I find it hard to believe reassurance from other people. Nice what about life lately? Any struggles, any dilemmas?
DeleteNot that much. All I can say is i'm growing. And still want to for the person I love and I'll marry. How about you?
DeleteJust alright, I can't say I'm growing maybe I have different concept of growth. Tis good to hear about marrying and stuff, me don't have plans about that yet were still planning about where to travel and all that and I just started to save for my own house. I do have a dilemma, I am torn between my flying and our business. I really do like to start my flying school but at the same time I am scared that I will put my mom in a lot of struggle and what if I can't finish it. Im still asking Him about this and been asking for a sign.
DeleteI'm not getting married. I mean I am preparing myself for the future for the one that I'll marry. As of now, I am enjoying my singleness. That's a big decision to make. You really should pray about that.
DeleteI mean we're at the right age but before I get married I should be able to afford Arthur nery or oh caraga on my wedding haha that's my dream wedding. Singleness? What happened? Are u alright? It is and I have been praying. It'll be a big decision but it's what my dad wants for me to start my flying school but my what ifs keeps crawling at my thoughts.
DeleteYes because I think that dream was really planted for a reason in your heart. Take time and soon, you will see the right answer and just realized you're already living with it.
DeleteThat's a good one I'll be sure to remember that thank you. I guess I should take my time while preparing for all possibilities. So what do you now? Whats keeping you busy?
DeleteI guess, I'm enjoying my solitude. You know, I've dated three people already in my life and I have realized that those chapters are responses of my trauma. I lived my youth well. I have learned to tolerate, to become patient, kinder, forgiving, and loving (naaahh guess still maldita for the next but ig it's different this time). I admit, I was harsh. But I'm excited to what's coming. All of you guys keep on lurking anyway and I realize (I don't want to sound arrogant) that my light kept you graceful to me. I am happy that you are one of the people who grew up. That's the goal before. You keep moving and stay on your pedestal. Keep on respecting your partner, okay? As for me, I will keep on loving and observing. I'm open now. You should give me flowers for my growth ig? Just kidding. Not busy that much, for the first time just really feels good to be single and not wanting what the world has. I'm going to Vietnam this year and manila again in November. Maybe (just maybe) I'll meet someone there :)
DeleteI'm very happy for you! Maldita? Uhmmmm Idk maybe youd be surprised of yourself. Forgive me for lurking. Sure, where to send?
DeleteVietnam, so excited for you!
"maybe youd be surprised of yourself" this is funny because i learned to embrace, change, and nurture them. But if we really love someone, I've learned in myself that sometimes I give tough love to make them better people even if it's the cost of losing me and my own happiness. As long as they grow. Enough with the talk, hmm, the flowers? Tbh I threw it before, right now, I'd be glad to receive them soon in time. After all, my love should be celebrated. Maybe on Saturday when we hang out with my friends. I'd like to celebrate for all the challenges I've faced and conquered. I'm growing even more gently. You should be really proud of me because I am too for myself and to you as well :)
DeleteRight! That's really something to talk about personally cause it's such a nice topic and I can't really find the right words to reply with that, don't get me wrong I'm so happy for you. Yourself awareness is through the roof and I'm already proud of you even then. :) Sure I'd be happy to, where would I send it?
DeleteNot sure. I'll be in Davao that time. Maybe somewhere in the coffee shop(?). Will you make someone to do it? I'll send the update on Saturday morning.
DeleteIdk if I know anyone whos in davao. Maybe I just have to find a way haha.
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